I had some weird ass dreams last night. It seems like all the ones I remember had something to do with the last one. Me and Jon were taking a vacation out to Suttons Bay (though in my dream it was a lot bigger). Anywho we stopped somewhere and got out of the car to walk around and we ran into people we knew and he went somewhere and I don't remember ever seeing him again. Then it broke off into me staying at this house, I'm pretty sure it was my aunt vanessa's..but different. It was HUGE.. and these people were after me and someone died in the room I was staying in so Nell stayed with me there. I can only remember bits and pieces. But yeah. I had my graduation party and everyone was there.. except for jon. I remember saying "damn.. I'm suprised so many people showed up since I'm out in the middle of nowhere." and I was sitting on the ground talking to tina and I looked behind me and whos walkin up? ROBBIE!  I turned around again to see if anyone noticed and they were all talking and what not and I turned around again and he was just standing right there. So I jumped up and hugged him. No, more like squeezed him and I was like.. "omg I missed you buddy!" and he was like "I missed my buddy too." "Don't EVER do that to me again!" and we just stood there hugging. I don't remember too much more. Except I went back inside the house and I was scared so I was running everywhere I had to go then I went back outside and I was all alone.

My mind is falling apart. I cried myself to sleep last night. Got a migrane with it too. I just don't know what to do anymore. I couldn't help it.. I just sat here and broke down. I brought it on myself though. I keep trying to play things off like they're ok and slowly I keep going down hill. Oh well, I'll make it through. Well, I have to finish eating then get dressed cause the horsies are getting their hooves trimmed. Toodles.